The English Mademoiselle Diaries: alice in wonderland

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Hooray for another rambling post! If you have read my little about page then you will know I adore Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll. This is by far one of my favourite quotes from the novel it is one of those quotes than when I am feeling stressed out or out of control in any situation it can calm me down. I have been using this quote along with a whole host of others to get me through what I call the "stressful packing stage" before I head off to university on Saturday.

Up next is the "oh my gherd I am actually moving stage" where I will freak out that I have forgotten something and worry that I won't be able to stick to my budget that I have set out...

XO, Miriam

P.S. Anyone at university have any advice for me coming in?

I have been really into creating cosplays (dressing up as) of Disney characters from what I have in my wardrobe, more specifically from Alice in Wonderland. My favourite version in by far Tim Burtons, because Johnny Depp and the dresses Alice wears are beautiful. In an attempt to recreate my doodled visions of an over the top "Alice" dress I added layers on top of a dress from Hollister that I have worn to be Alice before.

"If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there" - Cheshire Cat

As my room become ever filled with revision notes and a selection of text books that I have seemingly read an infinite amount of times, dressing as my favourite characters is by far one of the best ways to regain some sanity... That and caffeine makes me supper concentrated on one thing for hours on end (I also get really shaky and cannot sleep properly)

I am so glad that I can wear my handmade skirt over the top of other dresses while I wait for summer to add the underskirt...

I managed this shot on the second go! So proud I just wish there was a rabbit hole to fall down afterwards!

XO, Miriam

In a flurry of inspiration I went from scrawling venomous words in deep inky black, the kind that worries people, the kind you are scared of, not because of what is in it but because you have been blinded. The kind of darkness that makes you fear the future and the unknown and retreat back under the covers. To drawing the Mad Hatters Hat. Sometimes I wonder, Am I Alice before she looked through the looking glass? The answer is yes as to me the world is still enchanting and the Mad Hatter is still real enough to touch in my mind, cracked tea pots and sunken eyes. But so much more than that the sort of person you would miss in a future life.

"I am Alice before she looked through the looking glass"

So I took to my supplies of which I don't have many and tied them up in knots around a bowler hat seen here. Drew 10/6 on some folded paper, attached it to the spotty material with mismatched stud earrings and for a while I was the Mad Hatter complete with a fresh cup of tea (even if it was Green Tea, not English Breakfast Tea..).

I can see myself wearing this out at some stage, with some backcombed hair and pale eye make-up, and lest I forget the old school blazer, worn with ripped jeans and Doc Martens would be so perfect. But for now it will sit with pride upon my split end ridden messy hair. Not that, that matters at all I am only doing English revision today.

XO, Miriam

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The photo card says: "You're my cup of tea" and it reminded me of Alice in Wonderland so it has been added to my wall.

Lately I have be wondering about my blog, and what it is for now I have completed the CAS programme section of the IB. I considered whether it could go in new directions, or if it should be removed entirely. I came to the conclusion that it shall go in new directions, ones that suit me not the few people who read my blog. That doesn't mean I don't appreciate them reading, but I believe that for me at least having a blog should be for me.

Now I have decided to get back into blogging for me more than I have over the past few months, and for that I need to be more comfortable with myself both internally and externally, which I hope I will be able to achieve more easily when I have finished my exams. I also want it to be a place to recorded my thoughts and internal monologues that I keep in a neat on the outside but scruffy on the inside journal. There is no time like the present to begin a new way of thinking and therefore typing.

So here goes nothing important to everyone but me:

I guess this is something I have always wanted to do, cover up "that" school logo, with it's obnoxious motto. But I also know that "that" school and it's logo shaped me to be who I am today, whether that be good or bad.

"This world is all so real and fake. Only what you experience is real, what you see with your eyes and believe in your heart, everything else fades into nothingness compared to those memories of what you have done." - mon journal intime

Blurred images and unrealistic ideas of what I should be to "fit in" hide under this bowler hat. All of those stupid, crazy, fansical (is that even a word?) dreams that spill out on to pages of paper filled with in and ideas of my own personal wonderland fill my head when I take myself away from people where I sit nervously, never knowing how to act or what to say.